Wednesday, July 8, 2009

I've started a stress-less list

After my dad (a doctor) suggested sunbathing for vitamin D, I added it to my daily routine. I'm working from home for a few weeks, and heading out to the lounge chair between 11-1 is do-able and about the best thing that's happened to me in a few months.

I actually started to keep a daily list of the various positive things I'm doing to take care of my health and reduce my stress. The list part is all me (Type A personality, etc) but the stress-less part has turned into a real pleasure. I find myself doing something silly, like reading a few pages of a joke book, just so I can write it down.


Here's an example list from the last 24 hours :
  • Took a sunbath for 20 minutes
  • 40 minute walk
  • Went to my psychologist and made another appointment for next week
  • An hour of art project
  • Decluttered my 3+ items for the day
  • Made dinner for me & my husband – mussels (first time ever & a success), roasted green beans
  • Made muffins for E’s breakfasts for this week
  • Watched the end of Syriana DVD
  • Finished booking the California vacation hotels
  • Read the New Yorker for 15 minutes
  • Went through a pile of old clothes
  • Drank green tea
  • Handled a bunch of professional email
  • Meditated 10 minutes (felt longer!)

Saturday, July 4, 2009

It's a lonely road

I am sick. I hate saying that, but sometimes I have to face that reality.

I got some test results back today, and in addition to cancer, it turns out I'm also vitamin D deficient, hyper cholesterolemic ( no surprise, but the numbers are BAD), and crazily inflammed (sed rate and CRP both severly out of normal). I spent an hour on Google trying to figure out what it all means.

Most of the test results are probably overlapping the cancer diagnosis, and most don't require treatments. I have prescription-strength vitamin D to take, and my dad suggested daily sunbaths - which is the most fun treatment I've had in a LONG time.

E moved the lounge chair so it catches the most rays, and I head out there with a pitcher of iced tea or water, a stack of magazines or a book, and my iPhone & set the timer for 15 minutes. I've also stopped using my strong SPF face cream, and just wipe the stick on my nose and lips so I don't look like Rudolph.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Introducing Dr P

Today I went to the Instutit Gustave Roussy which is THE big cancer center in France. It's in one of the Parisian suburbs and it's a huge hospital complex that does nothing but cancer.

Looking at the website yesterday to orient myself I was really hit by how serious this is - I mean this is the Big Guns place, the center that partners with Kolinska and MD Anderson for Europe. Gulp. But the truth is, this is where the best experts are, and my friend Sophie had offered to get me in to see the endometrial expert, and with our recent questions I jumped at the opportunity.

Arriving at the IGR campus it was full-on cancer - bald, thin patients on IV drips sitting on the benches outside before you enter into the most modern and American-looking hospital I've seen since I've been in Europe. The system and the hospital is very organiszed, very much like the US (except maybe the price, which was ... €22, the lowest physician consult fee that exists in France). Crazy.

Dr P was thorough and impressive. She took her time to take the full history, re-read all the various test results with me to make sure she had the context, and basically immediately estabished herself as the most trusted of all these docs I've seen. Her perspective is also different from both Dr M and Dr C - Dr C is a general oncologist who knows nothing about endomtrial cancer, and Dr M is a gynecologist trained and specialized in gynecological cancer. Dr P is a oncologist trained in gynecologic cancer.

Bottom line from Dr P :
  • She believes that while the cancer is staged early, the only real way to know if it has had any invasion is a hysterectomy. A D&C can only catch so much. So there is a risk that there is invasive cancer still present, and that even after hormone treatment it would still be present.
  • She sees a risk in doing a stimulation for IVF on the endometrium
  • She sees a risk in doing a pregnancy on the endometrium
  • She does not believe we need to move with enormous speed, but that we shouldn't take forever to decide either
  • Her recommendation would be to have a hysterectomy now and keep the ovaries. To do an ovarian stimulation afterwards provided the hysterecomy pathology comes back clean. At some point in the future might or might not remove ovaries. She would NOT do a stimulation on the current endometrium, however, she thinks this could stimulate small cancer cells that might be present.
  • She is going to discuss this next week or the following one at the cancer board, where it would be also discussed w a surgeon and they would also give their opinion on whether or not to have the progestin treatment during the summer (presumably the hysterectomy would be in late August).
One thing that is for sure is that I had enormous confidence in the facility and in the doctor.

Her suggestion seemed the smartest middle road that I've heard to date, and is not one of the options I've heard from the docs nor seen discussed in the clinical literature.