On the mend

I am on the mend physically, emotionaly & spiritually.

I was without pain meds all day yesterday, and did fine. Today I wenT for a 20 minute walk, plus to the market, and I'll probably walk either to or from another appointment this afternoon (but not both directions just yet).

Most of my puncture holes from the laparascopic surgery are healed, and I'm just keeping little bandaids on them. The bigger incision in my belly button is taking a bit longer, but is still getting much better. I think next week I'll be able to take out the few stitches that aren't resorbable.

Emotionally too I feel better, stronger, more stable and more relaxed. I've started a few art projects which I hadn't made time for in years, and have been decluttering all areas of the house in a very subtle but undeniable way.

I've never been a very spiritual person, and not into new age touchy-feely stuff that my mom liked when I was a kid, but there is a shift here too. I am experimenting with meditation (so far, so good!), and find myself full of kindness, compassion, and forgiveness towards others. I'd sum it up as 'life's too short to not be nice'.

I'm also still eating very healthily and taking my vitamins (the pic).

I'm able to think of things other than cancer, and probalbly even have a tendency to ignore the cancer stuff a bit these past few days.

It's not denial, just a new ability to push it aside for a while. Last night relaxing with my husband we both felt it was our first "normal" evening in a month.

I'm also ready to tell more people. I don't want my family back home needing to worry about who knows what, so I have a few friends I need to call this weekend.