Dr M - first visit

First visit with Dr M was Friday the 29th, at the end of the most hellacious week.

I had the pelvic MRI at 11:30 and was told to call Dr M afterwards. The night before the MRI I think I slept about 10 minutes total. I was completely freaked out after having seen the pathology report from last June which already showed atypia and I had never seen, never been followed up. I was seriously wigged out, and was so worried that the MRI would show cancer everywhere. I was crying as the bang bang bang of the MRI whirled around for 20 minutes.

Waiting for the results was hell, of course. It didn't help that I had told them E was on his way and I was thinking they were waiting for him to arrive to tell me bad news. Eventually the Dr called me in and told me she saw nothing at all. What a huge, enormous relief. I cried.

I called Dr M and he said to come on over to his office right then, even though he wasn't seeing patients on Friday afternoon (he knew from Dr O that I was very anxious) and I am so grateful he did see us, because if I'd had to wait I'd have had a really lousy weekend.

Dr M said right away "we are not in a fight for your life, we are going to see if we can let you keep your uterus long enough to get to have a baby". He probably said this to us 3 times. Of course, getting to have a baby doesn't mean ME having a baby necessarily - we might very well need or be advised to use a surrogate carrier (which is illegal in France but can be arranged in the US).

He talked to us about the stage of disease (stage 0 or 1A according to him, based on the negative MRI). Told us the next step was a D&C via hysteroscopy and a laparoscopy of the pelvis at the same time. He will clamp the fallopian tubes before the D&C to avoid spreading any cancerous cells that are in the uterus. I'll be in the hospital for about 2 days, then off work for a few more days. Surgery is scheduled for the 16th of June. I can check in that morning.